competitive video games, for me, are my genre of choice because of the things that seem to negatively affect you. the pressure to perform, the dependency on each other as a team (for better or for worse), are the adrenaline fuel that makes the game fun. i think if those seem like detractors rather than enticing elements, you should try to just do everything you can to remove the anxiety of failure.
this game's so dead it's talking to my grandma 6 feet below. there's no one riding on your performance or else they wont get their esports career, theres no brand deals or twitch.tv audience to try and secure. its the most low reward game you could probably play right now, and thus you gotta remind yourself that the price of failure is absolutely nothing